and notes on depression

so i did get locked up, and for the moment, it certainly saved me.

but now i'm out about, oh a month? two months? my medication is failing now. my doctor isn't helping me fix this.

i have a second opinion tomorrow. please be the thing that stops this horrible feeling. i am sad.
or more like, i am sadness. i feel to be the saddest thing that exists. i feel the weight of the world on my shoulders, and it all hurts so much.

i am just so SAD. it's married to HOPELESS. i am bleak, i am despairing. i don't want it. i want to be happy, and i just can't get there.

please, please, let there be light at the end of this black tunnel. i can't bear this, i can't handle this, why do i suffer this way?