This whore's moaning, alright

Hormones have taken me hostage

They say,"Come now, it's time to cry. Come on, you gotta do it.'

Am I anything more than hormones, chemicals

heredity lack of sleep poor diet?

Am I ultimately just a badly formed thought?

Acetylcholine Norepinephrine Dopamine GABA

Glutamate Serotonin Endorphin.. Erica Stein?

I am all that and blood and some guts, I guess.

But I can put these words down

I am some kind of entity jailed inside

a faulty system

i wish i could plant a tree that grew donuts.

see what i mean? these things just aren't working together.

The birds kinda sound like sirens
The lakes, oh these are puddles of mud.

The spring sun is more a biting wind.
If the only sin is limitation,
I want to be pure and good.

The city around me shuts me down
The body I'm inside of doesn't let me out.

My empty reassurances left NYC
some time ago.

I am trying to still hold onto the illusion of hand holding
the mental kind
That's floating around Philadelphia
Long distance lobsters can't save me
Local emus can't fix it all

I can try to save myself
Or call my friend Charles
and probably annoy him.

Jesse

When you wake up in the morning

You're getting on your way to go

out into the world,

to be alive, to go to your job, to spend time with your girlfriend.

After you splash some water on your face

Check yourself in the bathroom mirror,

You can see the face I see

You see that scar? It happened cause you hit women.

That's what is etched in my mind when I wake up screaming.

Say good morning to my nightmares.

Why you get a life to live,

and I don't,

is what life's unfair is all about.

I just need you to know,

and I'm not there to look you in the eyes when I say it.

You blame me or anyone else,

but you put your hands around my throat

You were shaking me and taking my air

You dragged me up the stairs by my hair

And no I didn't mean for anything to rhyme

That's not my point here.